Jan 30, 2012

Expectation vs. Reality

I have always thought that I am someone who will be the one that starts any arguments and initiate a cold war. Maybe throw a tantrum here and there. But, I will never be the one who will be the person who gives in first. I'm pretty sure that it is not my character to be the person to give in in an argument, no matter I'm right or wrong, because I'm just someone who's kiasu and won't be the one that backed out/down.

That is what I thought.

True, sometimes, I'm still the one who threw a tantrum and started the argument/cold shoulder. My temper and ego are the ones to blame for this, I admit it's my fault. But, I did not expect me to be the one to relent and give in, to be the one who in turn tries to make the other smile and forget about what's going on.

I guess, I rather ignore my ego and kiasu-ness to give in and made up with the other person rather than being in a bad mood and stew in irritation/anger/annoyance. That's bad for both parties.

Did I grew up? Am I slowly maturing mentally? I hope so.

And I certainly hope that I improve my temper and lower down me ego so as to not get into any argument/cold shoulder. A lovey-dovey moment can turn sour in a matter of seconds, and that is just sad. :(

2 comments:

aNing~ said...

It just shows that you care for another person's feeling that u're willing to give in whatever nonsense ego feeling. it's not just a a stage of growing up, it shows the reciprocation of love, giving in and taking, everyone's learning. Keep it up. But well, don't give in every single time. U'll resent after doing it for too often.

Chelsie said...

I'll take it as an advice from someone experienced. :)